Counting The Days

2010-03-08T13:11:00.004+08:00

I couldn't get out of bed this morning. My head hurt, I felt like throwing up, but most of all, I was so depressed I could not move. Did not want to move. I had slept for over 10 hours but I could only continue sleeping some more. This body simply could not muster the energy to move.

And in my sleep, I could dream about you, I could see your face. Only most times, the dreams aren't happy. But I had half the belief that when I awake, I would realise that this had all been a horrible dream, that you really hadn't stopped loving me. But life, being the b*tch that it is, made sure that I only woke up to the cruel reality that we are so far from where we were just 6 months ago. And I can't help but ask myself, what have I done to deserve this fate? What have I done so wrong in a past life, or in my present life, to deserve getting my heart stomped on repeatedly? And why, when I've found someone who's made me truly understand what it is to love someone so completely, it is all taken away almost immediately?

You called me at 1am to tell me that I should not be doing you all these favours, much as you appreciated them, and that I need to accept that it's over.

I lay in the dark listening to you, listening to you tell me it's over and that I've been nothing but immature about this. And I had nothing to say. What was there to say? Everything had been said, nothing could change your mind.

This morning, I recalled what the tarot card lady in Melbourne had told me in November, and it hit me then that a lot of what she had said have proved to be accurate....only the bits about you, about us, have not come to fruition. A part of me almost laughed at the irony of it, a part of me wanted to cry over it, a part of me felt hopeful (though I don't suppose I should encourage this feeling of hope anymore). Isn't it ludicrous, that even after you've told me repeatedly that this is beyond over, that I continue to hope that you'd come back? What is wrong with me?!

Could have, would have, should have

2010-03-07T21:28:00.003+08:00

I bloody f*cking hate my life.
I hate that I'm sitting here missing you when it could have been our 6th month anniversary.

I hate that I can't hold you, I hate that I can't have you near.

I hate that none of my prayers for another chance with you have been heard.

I hate that we seem to be distant strangers, I seem to have lost my best friend.

I hate that you are cold towards me, because you think it'd make me get over you more easily.

I hate that I even have to get over you.

I hate that I can't care for you the way I want to.

I hate that I can't be there every morning when you wake, every night when you sleep.

Heck, I even hate that I can't do your laundry!

I hate that I am in such pain that all I want to do is hide under the sheets and hope that I'd eventually wake up from this nightmare. But I only ever wake up to reality.

I bloody f*cking hate my f*cking life.

Thoughts

2010-03-02T22:57:00.006+08:00

You tell me that I'm a "really great person" and it's not that you do not feel the same way for me as I do for you but you think you're being fair to me by letting me go, since you feel you won't marry me because I'm not "the one".

Honestly, I don't think "the one" exists.

To me, the term "the one" suggests someone who fits my mould of a perfect partner, who ticks off every criteria on my list. Well, yes, I know there's no such thing as a perfect person, but I've always hoped for someone who would come close. But I now know I'll never find that.

I think - and I might be wrong cos hey, how much do I know about love? I'm always screwing it up - I've found "the one" (for lack of a better word) when:

a) I love him despite all his imperfections, all the skeletons in his closet;

b) I want to do things for him just because I want to see him happy. It hurts me when he's hurting. Even when he's hurt his knee for example......it hurts me;

c) I put him first;

d) Even on days where I almost hate him, I will stay and work things out because I love him more;

e) I want to care for him, see him through life (I want to be a witness to his life);

f) I don't get bored of seeing him everyday. In fact, I want to and am excited to see him everyday;

g) My heart does flips every time I see him or when he calls. I know it will probably not do flips forever though......haha;

h) I feel like I could grow with him as a person. I feel like I could with you, in that you force me to grow up, and want to be a "better" person, not just for myself, but for you as well. You might not ask me to make these changes, but I want to do them for you, for us.

And I guess a part of finding the "right" person is hard to explain because it's intangible......it's a feeling. When you just feel like you want to be with him forever, when you never want to imagine not waking up to him every morning and falling asleep in his embrace every night.

I recall an occasion when I hesitated to tell you what I was thinking...that I never wanted you to let me go, that I wanted to be with you forever. But I never said it. I don't know if it was my stupid pride, but I never let myself tell you that. Maybe I should have.

I reflected on things you said to me before we got together - you told me how you felt about me, and ironically, I feel that way about you now, but I don't think you do anymore.......or do you?

If i knew that at the end of all this, you'd come back, then all this pain would have been worth it. But I don't know that, and I'm afraid. It's not that I cannot live without you, but the point is I don't ever want to.

I miss your hugs, the smell of your skin, the softness of your lips, the way you taste, the sound of your voice, the ring of your laughter, the beat of your heart against mine, the quiet moments alone with you. I miss your stupid jokes, I miss our routines. I miss my best friend. I miss you so much it hurts.

When silence is deafening

2010-02-14T13:55:00.003+08:00

This has got to be the most miserable Chinese New Year and Valentine's ever.

It's so tiring pretending to be happy when really, there is only pain in my heart. I listened to the neighbours playing with firecrackers last night, and as everyone around me celebrated, I closed my eyes to sleep the pain away.

Why did you persist for so long, only to give up after 5 months? Do I mean so little to you? Do you not care? Are you even thinking about me at all? Do the 11 years of friendship not count for anything either?

I can't stop staring

2008-07-04T22:19:00.004+08:00

I just saw this on The Sartorialist, and had to share.
I love love love how she's matched a soft flowy feminine dress with gladiator sandals. Gorgeous, no?

You have to be quite thin to pull the dress off, I'd say.
(then again, I think most clothes look better on thin girls...but that's just me)

I want a pair of glads. Anyone? Please? Pretty please?

Home

2008-07-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

If home is where the heart is, then this must not be home?

5 days

2008-06-23T23:12:00.004+08:00

Five days, and counting, to 4 days of bliss.

I'm crazy excited. Like, pee your (my) pants excited (not literally!).

How do I make time stand still this weekend, so that I may never have to leave you?

Rarities, B-Sides and Other Stuff Volume 2

2008-06-04T22:15:00.004+08:00

Drop everything,
run out,
grab this,
and fall in love (again) with the genius that is Sarah McLachlan.If you don't like it, you suck.

Hehe....JUST KIDDING!!!
Half kidding.
Happy listening!

Sometimes

2008-05-31T22:54:00.001+08:00

Sometimes a week feels like forever!

If I had my way, surely you would be closer

2008-05-23T23:44:00.003+08:00

I wrote this the last time you left.
Then you came back, and I had the happiest month so far this year.
Now I'm counting down the days till I see you again.

I miss the warmth of your embrace,
And the kisses that bring a smile to my face;
What I'd give to hold you near,
To whisper sweet nothings in your ear.

A break?

2008-04-13T14:50:00.002+08:00

I have not been in the mood to blog much lately, hence the lack of posts. In fact, I'm not sure if I'm going to continue blogging, but I won't take my blog down just yet. We'll see.
Later! :)

I'm in love

2008-03-21T14:47:00.005+08:00

Finally.

After weeks of waiting and stressing (believe me, I did get stressed out), the Louis Vuitton Tivoli PM arrived yesterday. R was nice enough to hold it for me. Thank goodness he did too, because it was sold out again by the end of the day. I know, like, what the?!
Maybe it'll still be available in KLCC, but hurry if you want it!

It was also sold out in Singapore and Macau (that's how desperate I was hehe). Who would have thought a little bag would cause such a frenzy?

Who to vote for?

2008-03-03T22:32:00.003+08:00

According to Kenny Sia's Who-To-Vote-For decision generator, I should be voting for DAP! LOL!

According to the 100% accurate kennysia.com Who-To-Vote-This-Election Decision Generator™, I am voting for...

DEMOCRATIC ACTION PARTY!

Who Should You Vote For This Election?

Only, I'm not registered to vote. *badddd baaaad bad citizen. sue me*
It's a really funny post, though.

All in the family

2008-02-20T22:53:00.007+08:00

This evening, it hit me.
I miss having family here in KL.
I guess my friends here are my family now, and I do really love my friends but it's just....a tiny teeny bit different. Do I make sense?

OK, so Malacca isn't really that far away, and I do talk and sms with my parents and bro, but I was just thinking, wouldn't it be nice to not come back to an empty house everyday?

Come to think of it, I've never really lived alone.

When I was doing my A-Levels, I lived with friends.
When I was in university, I lived with friends. Plus I had my brother and a boyfriend around.
(Although my brother and I lived separately)
When I started working in KL, I lived with my brother (until the end of last year).

I think 60% of the time I am fine living alone, 35% of the time I actually LOVE having the whole place to myself, but 5% of the time, of which today clearly is part of, I wish there was someone else around.

So anyway, I tell my brother I miss having family around in KL. And he goes "OK.....watch Idol".
I had to laugh to myself after reading that message!

Sometimes I wish my teddy bears could talk back. Hmmm.

I think I'm just emo today. *shuts self up, continues watcning Idol*

P/S: Totally unrelated, but I simply cannot find my phone charger. And my phone is down to its last bar of battery. This does not bode well with the mobile phone addict in me. *panic*

Did you know?

2008-02-16T14:09:00.005+08:00

Mum told me yesterday that there is a vaccine for cervix cancer so I looked it up on Wikipedia today.

The vaccine is actually for human papillomavirus (HPV) which is associated with the development of cervix cancer.

I didn't know, but now I do!

Back in London, when I turned 21 (was it 21? I think so) the NHS sent me a letter to tell me it was time I had my first pap smear, and would I please make an appointment with the local clinic for one. I've not been for another one since then. I've just never thought it was important. But I've come to realise recently that it may be important after all, so maybe I, and all women, should go for regular pap smears.

P/S: Before you allow your imagination to run wild......Yes, I'm perfectly healthy. Something else triggered this post.

Valentine's Day....

2008-02-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

....also happens to be cousin MW's birthday - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
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...you should be here....

It could happen to you

2008-02-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

I almost became a victim of a snatch theft earlier this evening.
Well, no, actually, last night. I didn't realise it's already past 12am.
(I can't sleep. Again.)

Anyways, as I was crossing a road, a motorcycle whizzed by. The pillion driver reached his hand out and attempted to grab my bag but didn't reach far enough so he didn't get my bag. I stared at him, shocked, then ran into the hotel where I was to meet a friend (who's in KL for work so we met up for dinner).

And the first thing that occured to me was, thank goodness my bag's safe. My very precious bag.
OK, clearly, my priorities are a little out of whack.

I guess it was partly my fault for not really paying attention to my surroundings, as I was on the phone and was just hanging up when it happened.

I suspect I am now going to walk around feeling very paranoid for at least a few weeks.
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On a happier note, look what my bro bought me when he came back for CNY!

It was good being home over CNY, but I ended up coming back to KL Monday night with a slight fever and just feeling extremely tired. Now I feel much better (I swear, working out helps a lot!) but am coughing a little. I think the cough should go away soon enough....I hope!

I should go to bed now. Hopefully this cup of valerian tea will send me to la la land in a few minutes!

Year of the rat

2008-02-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

I need to pack because I'm going home tomorrow night, but I don't enjoy packing - it's pretty darn stressful, coordinating all those outfits and shoes and bags - so I am procrastinating, which is something I do very well.

Just one more day of work! Woot!
I'm really looking forward to Chinese New Year because I'll get to see my parents, my brother (yay!!!) and family members and friends that I don't see very often.

And lets not forget the angpows. *grin*

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
Drive safely, party hard and collect lots of red packets!
And if you're celebrating your birthday - KS, Shen, Yen - happy birthday!!! *hugs*

Yoga goes high tech

2008-02-04T00:16:00.000+08:00

Well, ok, not really high tech per se.

Yoga Journal now has podcasts, so you can practise at home with your own personal instructor! Sort of.

There are 3 podcasts to date. You can download them from the YJ website or from iTunes.
Have fun practising!

Nail me!

2008-02-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

Did I get your attention? Hehe.

Madeline was just telling me a few weeks back about the mani + pedi promotion at her newly opened outlet at The Gardens,
I've finished up my package at Nail Clinique,
and I had to get my nails done for Chinese New Year today,
So I decided to get them done at Glitters Nails & Waxing Salon today, located on the 4th floor of the Gardens!

This outlet is bigger than the one at Bangsar Village II, and has massage chairs too!
I had a lot of fun playing around with my chair today!
The waxing room also has a bidet so you can *ahem* wash yourself before and after your wax.
Their selection of OPI nail colours is good, although not as extensive as at Nail Clinique.

Glitters has a loyalty card for their mani + pedi services, like the one they have for waxing. So each time you go, you get a stamp and a freebie (except on your first visit). For example, on your second visit, you'll get a free paraffin treatment.
(It works a little differently for their waxing loyalty card though - you get x% off on certain visits - not all - and a free gift on your 4th visit)

Anyways, as an opening promotion, Glitters is only charging RM 77 for mani AND pedi, AND you'll get paraffin treatment for both hands and feet thrown in FOC.
Can you say, bargain?!
(I know the website says RM69 but it's RM77 ya)
I think Madeline said the promotion should last up until after CNY but I didn't ask a specific date.
Make your appointment by calling 03-2282-8813 today!

P/S: Don't take the escalator leading up to GSC although it's also on the 4th floor, because it's separated from Cocoon.
Cocoon, by the way, is the section that houses Glitters, mYoga, Centro Hair Salon, and mtm skincare.
Oh, and if you have a platinum credit card issued by any Malaysian incorporated bank, you'll be able to enjoy some perks at Cocoon outlets. I only noticed this after my nail appointment! It's valid up till March though, so I'm going back soon. I hope supplementary cards count. *rubs hands in glee*

*This is NOT a paid advertisement*

Miles away

2008-01-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

Do you allow yourself to feel, or let your fear of being burnt hold you back?

Pfft!

2008-01-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

Don't you hate how people you've not spoken to or seen me in a while ask "When are you getting married?" the moment they see you, obviously assuming you're in a relationship?

And should you say you're single, you get that whole spiel about how you're really not that young anymore and how you really ought to be less choosy?

Well I don't know about you, but I'm sick of it.

Bubbly

2008-01-22T00:24:00.000+08:00

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

:)
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Can't wait for Wednesday!! For one, it's a public holiday, and there will be another 2 hour yoga class, but more importantly, Val will be coming to KL and staying with me for one night.
I just got off the phone with her and realised we were talking for over an hour.
I wonder if we'll actually sleep on Wednesday night or talk till the wee hours of the morning like we used to way back when.

Distance

2008-01-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

Does distance make the heart grow fonder, or do you believe that once you're out of sight, you'll probably be out of mind?

Contemplate

2008-01-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

This is a little something from Sara Avant Stover's latest newsletter which made me think, so I thought I'd share it with you. And no, I have no answer to it yet.

If you haven’t already done so, take a quiet moment today or this evening to journal about that which you are ready to relinquish during this New Year. Use the potency of the shift that is happening in Nature now to support your inner journey. What is the door that is ready to be closed? And what is the door that is just waiting to be opened?

I've been wanting to blog about an anecdote Vincent related to us during our 3 hour yoga class last Thursday (which was a public holiday) but I've been lazy and busy, so you'll have to wait :)

You know how they say that by living by the cycles of the moon, you'll be connecting with the cyclical rhythms in nature and within yourself? I'm wondering if I should at least try this out once.
Hmmm.
Anyways, if you're interested:

New Moons:
Use these days to relax, sleep in, meditate, curl up with a book and eat simple foods like fresh juices, salads and steamed vegetables.

January 8, February 7, March 7

Full Moons:
Use these days for high-energy celebrations. Dance, go for a hike, skinny dip under the moonlight, indulge in rich desserts and festive meals with family and friends.

January 22, February 21, March 21

Feb 7 is Chinese New Year......I don't think I'll be sleeping in!!

The more boys I meet

2008-01-12T13:54:00.000+08:00

Well, no, not me exactly.
But it's the title of a song by Carrie Underwood (you'll find it on her latest album), in which she says "The more boys I meet, the more I love my dog."
Makes sense, no? *grin*

OK I'll blog again later. Gotta run! I'm going to witness KS get hitched!

Ain't no sunshine

2008-01-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

Sunshine has been annoying the crap out of me!

If you don't already know, Sunshine is my pink iPod nano.

iTunes has not been able to detect Sunshine when she's plugged into my PC, although I am still able to charge it. I've had this problem for a while now. Earlier tonight, I installed iTunes again (and yes, the latest version), but it still could not detect my damned iPod.

Just 2 minutes ago, Shen suggested I reset my iPod. And voila! iTunes now detects it!
(Apparently he sent me a mail this afternoon about it but I didn't get it. Hmm.)
Goddamn iTunes. And damned email servers.
I was going to pull my hair out already.

On another unrelated note, I wonder if chipmunks make good pets. I want a cute fat one who can talk, sing and read, and wants to cuddle up with me when he gets nightmares, like Theodore.
Hehe ok I'm officially crazy.
*I watched Alvin and The Chipmunks yesterday, in case you're wondering*

New beginnings

2008-01-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

I spent most of last night trying to shut out the voices in my head that were keeping me awake.
I couldn't help but wonder what I had achieved in 2007 (not much?).
And all the drama! I could have done without some of them.
But I guess I wouldn't have learned the lessons that I have, had everything been peachy.

After talking to Val and Sharryberry today, I have realised one thing though - that I have some of the most amazing friends anyone could ever ask for, and I wouldn't have pulled through without them (you all know who you are). So I guess that must be something to be thankful for.

And today I realised I should waste no more time and energy on being angry. Like I told Sharryberry "I don't know, and I don't want to care".

So instead of saying "I hope 2008 won't suck half as much as 2007 did", I should say "Lets hope 2008 works out to be an even better year than 2007".
*reminds self*

Anyway, this month looks like it might be quite a good one.
I got a bunch of belated X'mas pressies yesterday and today,
MJ's celebrating his birthday tomorrow,
V is cooking lunch this Saturday,
I will probably get a new Coach wristlet delivered to me *grin*
KH will be back this Saturday too....and again at the end of the month,
I will, hopefully, get to meet Mel,
Gav might come to KL,
KS is coming back!! To get married.....,
And another wedding - Gary's (no, Sharry, don't panic, different guy)
And I think the best news I've had today - Val's coming back for a week!!
*happy happy joy joy*

(And one or two items I left out intentionally because I don't want to discuss them)

Oh, my bro might come back to KL this month too!! Well, he said maybe. So we'll see.

Maybe 2008 will work out to be a good year after all.
*fingers crossed*

P/S: With all that's happening, I wonder if I will actually keep to my resolve to behave this month. Hmm.

Good behaviour

2008-01-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

Today Val suggested I be a very good girl for one month.
That would mean no clubbing, no drinking, no anything naughty.

I agreed.

Then I remembered that a few weeks back I agreed to go to Mambo tomorrow night.
But I don't feel like going anymore.
Time for a break!
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Looking back on 2007, I don't feel like I've achieved much. There isn't anything I'm particularly proud of. I wouldn't say 2007 was a bad year for me, but it wasn't great either. I have learned a lot though, from all of it.

Lets hope 2008 works out to be a better year, in all respects. For me, and for you.

Out with the old, in with the new

2007-12-31T16:13:00.000+08:00

I was going to write a post about the things I've learned in 2007, but now I'm tired and lazy, so scrap that idea.

I've also been convinced by mum and ES not to go get my hair washed and blown for tonight because I wouldn't want to get stuck in traffic. I was meaning to try out A Cut Above at the Pavilion!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
Drive safe!

Year end party check list

2007-12-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

I'm cooking some soup!!
Well, actually, I have just put my organic butternut squash soup to boil. It's pre-packed soup by the Pacific Food company.
Yes, that is my idea of cooking.

So anyway, I have come up with my own check list of things you should do before 31 Dec to ensure you look and feel your best for your year end party.

1. Facial
2. Body scrub (a massage to go with it is optional, but I say it's a pretty good option)
3. Wax!
4. Mani & pedi
5. If your hair looks like a mop, have a cut / trim.
6. Exercise, exercise!!
7. Drink tons of water

Did I miss anything out?

I'm going home later today, until 31 Dec itself, but I should be back by the afternoon.
I haven't been home since the Raya break. That was October, maybe?
Raya - was that when it all happened but I just didn't know it? Or refused to believe it?
Ah, well, seriously, I don't give a damn anymore. I'm so over it.

A sticky matter

2007-12-24T14:18:00.000+08:00

Before my brother left, I've never really checked the mail box because I knew he'd do it. I'm now slowly getting into the habit of checking it once in a few days. So anyway, I thought I should check it after step class earlier.

And in it was a big envelope. I took one glance and knew who it was from.

It was my X'mas gift from Shen (who's many miles away having fun, dammit) - a sticker book!
I literally laughed out loud.
Not just ANY sticker book ok? It's an ENCHANTED sticker book!
Hmmm.....The guy thinks I'm a 4 year old.
But I actually quite like it. I mean, it's Enchanted!
I feel like a 4 year old.

I shall spend X'mas day sticking!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

P/S: You might (or might not) have noticed the video I posted up on Facebook last night. It's a music video from Enchanted. Don't you just love the song?

Singapore Dec07: Random bits

2007-12-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

I found an interesting brand of skin and body care in one of the pharmacies, called Yes To Carrots! So cute, so me, I had to take a picture! I should get me some of their stuff on the next trip out.

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Clarke Quay is so different and pretty now! I like! I haven't been there for a good number of years. I don't know why, I just didn't seem to go there during my last few visits. The area we were at - lined with clubs and restaurants - is now also known as The Cannery.

We had dinner at some Italian restaurant. I don't even know the name of the place but it was good. Nice, cosy and good.

The clubs / bars surround a pretty fountain.

Our first stop after dinner was Kandi Bar. We sat outside so that it was easier to hear each other. There were tons of crocodile soft toys stuffed in a net. Rather interesting.

Then we headed over to Forbidden City by Indochine.
I remember the last time I was at Indochine. CM, S-En and I were there for dinner many years ago. The place has definitely had a facelift.
We sat next to the aquarium so I took this picture of a little fish.

Our last stop was The Clinic. I loved the concept here. Wheelchairs are used as chairs, and some drinks are served in syringes and drips.

This here makes it look like we were sitting in a surgery room, I think.

And another random picture I took which I think is pretty.

If you're like Gav and wondering if they give discounts to doctors, the answer is no. He asked on his first visit.

At the parking lot, I noticed a pretty mural on the wall which looked to me like an advertisement.
"Hey, is there a club called Staircase? Oh...wait, is that just to say we're in the stairwell?" I realised how silly I was.
"Yes we're in the staircase"
I'm too ditzy for my own good sometimes!
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I left for Singapore with S$300 in cash. I came home with just a little under S$200 in cash. Not bad, I say! I spent most of my time in Singapore either shopping (which was all on credit card) or with my brother. Whenever I was with my brother, he paid for everything - meals, cab / MRT rides, even little knick knacks I bought. And when I hung out with Gav, he insisted on paying for everything too. Lucky me!
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After 6 years of not seeing each other (keeping in touch via Facebook, and the occassional sms don't count), I'm so glad Gav and I can still talk like we used to.
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I realised how addicted I am to the Internet, when after a short tour around Gav's place, I simply plop myself down in front of his PC and checked my emails and Facebook. This was close to 9PM and we hadn't eaten, and one of the first things I could think of was my emails!
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I really like my bro's place. It has all the amenities you could want - tennis courts, a huge huge pool (I'm so bringing my swimsuit the next time I'm in Singapore and inviting myself over for a swim!), games room (with a pool table), gym (quite well equipped), karaoke room, and conference room. And it's relatively close to Orchard Road too (3 stops)! Me likey.
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Was supposed to watch The Golden Compass with my bro but he changed his mind, especially when everyone's been saying how bad it is. I still want to watch it though. I should get the DVD.
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Everytime I walk into the departure hall at Changi (just before clearing customs), I think of you. I remember when we broke up. I cried and held on to you for the longest time. I remember the exact spot where we stood. I remember the white shirt you wore, soaked with my tears. I remember our ride to the airport and our conversation. We've both moved on, but I suppose some things you just don't forget.

But this time....this time I felt sad. Because I feel like I've lost a friend. I cannot understand how you might allow her to tell you whom you can be friends with. It's been years; you'd think she'd be fine by now.

Whatever makes you happy, I guess.

I don't know if you'll read this, but if you do, just know I don't hold it against you. I accept your apology. I just wish it were different.

Singapore Dec07: Pure Yoga

2007-12-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

One of the items high up on my to-do list in Singapore was to try a yoga class at Pure Yoga.

On the day I arrived, after lunch and drinks with my uni mates (excl S-En who wasn't feeling well), I popped by Pure Yoga at Ngee Ann City to look around and find out if I could partake in a class the following day, and how much a drop-by would cost.

The customer representative that attended to me was Nicky. He showed me around the studio, talked me through the various classes they have, told me a little about a few of their instructors, and set me up for a class the next day. A class costs S$40 for a one time drop-in but if you're Singaporean and keen to sign up for a package at Pure (or you really know how to work your charms hehe), you get a trial class for free!

I was very eager to try out Hot Yoga (a.k.a. Bikram Yoga), which really is just yoga taught in a heated room. Nicky recommended I try Hot Flow since I already do yoga.

I arrived half an hour before my 12.30PM class the next day, got changed and lounged in one of the very comfy sofas reading a yoga magazine until Nicky told me it's time to go into the studio. The instructor was Kenny, who reminded me of famous yogi Rodney Yee. Must be the hair.

We started off with the usual sun salutations, then moved through a series of poses. I didn't find it as flow-y as I'd expected, since it was supposed to be a vinyasa class. It wasn't very challenging, I don't think. But it wasn't easy-peasy-close-your-eyes-can-do either. Er lets just say, if you've done some power yoga before, you won't be struggling through the poses and won't be dead tired when you get out of class. I'm not saying Kenny's not a good instructor; in fact, I think he is rather good. Very precise, the kind who'd go around correcting your posture. I guess it's just that the class wasn't designed to be super challenging.

My favourite part was when we moved from shoulderstand (the unsupported version; I can't find a link for that) to bridge, to urdhva dhanurasana. I don't know why I refer to some poses with their English names and some with their Sanskrit names. Anyhow, I love how instructors are able to come up with interesting sequences like this, because I can't. Or maybe I can't be bothered to think.

I found it a little tricky to hold the Bakasana pose though, because my arms were so sweaty that my knees kept slipping bit by bit. I had to hold in my abs a lot more but they still slipped slowly. Maybe I wasn't holding in enough.

In a regular yoga class, I have to make a concious effort to practice Ujjayi Pranayama throughtout the class but in this hot yoga session, I found it came very naturally. Strange.

Prior to this, I've heard that some people feel faint in a hot yoga class so I was a little worried. I felt very very slightly lightheaded for a few minutes while we moved through the sun salutations but once I got used to the heat, I was fine.

Bikram Yoga is great for detoxification because it makes you sweat a whole lot more. It also makes it easier to stretch because your body is warmed up. However, I think the danger with this is, if you don't know your limits, you could think "ooooh I'm so flexible!" and over stretch, so do be careful!

It would be advisable to bring a large towel, so that you can wrap yourself up after class to keep your body warm. It's not very fun coming out from a heated room to an air conditioned room. I kept myself wrapped up all the way to the showers!

Pure Yoga has great facilities. The changing / shower room is huge (with rain showers!), and shampoo, conditioner, shower gel, facial cotton, cotton buds, body lotion and towels are all provided. Use of lockers is free. Yoga mats are provided too. Really, all you need to bring is yourself and a change of clothes. If you forget to bring a bottle of water, fret not, you can buy bottled water there. Or if you have your own bottle you can fill it up at one of the many water dispensers around.

There is also a branch at Raffles Place but if I had to pick one to sign up with, I'd choose the Ngee Ann City one. No prizes for guessing why.

Pure sells yoga wear as well, which I was planning to buy because all the female instructors at Jiva have such pretty yoga wear (they wear mainly Lululemon, mostly purchased at Pure Yoga HK when they attend workshops there), but changed my mind when I found out a simple top sells for about S$100 (some more, some a little less). That's just the top. So I'd have to shell out RM400-ish for an entire outfit! OK, maybe on the next trip, if I don't actually buy anything else and/or am feeling much more generous with myself, I might consider buying expensive yoga wear. I'm a sucker for all things pretty.

Then again, as Gav put it...."for a few pieces of spandex?!"

I got a text message from Sharryberry when I left Pure, so I decided to tell her that I just had a yoga class. "Seriously you are a FREAK!" came her response. Haha that cracked me up!!

Singapore Dec07: Cedele

2007-12-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Last night (i.e. Saturday night) my brother suggested Cedele at Wheelock Place for dinner. Healthy eating, he tells me. I agreed immediately.

I really liked it!!

I'm surprised my brother's starting to eat healthy. Surprised, but very glad.

We had a garden green salad to share.

There were sunflower seeds in the salad; I asked if he liked them.
"Hmmm...quite nice. First time I'm having them"
"Really?! So jakun!"
"Yeah I only know bak kut teh and McD's"

We (actually, I) ordered the tofu salad with balsamic vinaigrette to share. I liked it. I don't think my bro liked it as much.
My main was the asparagus and mushroom risotto.
I didn't have much of the rice because it was waaaayyyy more creamy than I had expected. I don't like cream. Actually, does risotto have to be creamy? I remember having non creamy risotto before. Hmmm....the menu didn't mention cream. Ewww...cream! OK you get my point.

Bro's main was the fish pasta. The pasta itself was actually quite good!

I had the "very berry" sorbet for dessert; bro had the pistachio chocolate cake.

Hmm....not very good pics. I need to learn to use Photoshop.

Cedele also serves some gluten free fare, and marks those items on the menu as suitable for those with coeliac disease.

So my bro goes, "What is ko-liac?"
"It's see-liac!!" I laughed.
I gave him a little education on what coeliac disease is.
At one point, I said, "Gluten free food is good for people who are intolerant to gluten."
"That's like saying your left shoe is for your left leg!" his turn to laugh at me.

I say the stupidest things sometimes, don't I?
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On my first night in Singapore, bro took me to Imperial Treasures Teochew restaurant at Ngee Ann City. We didn't order the usual teochew dishes; nothing like what grandma used to cook but it was really good nonetheless.
There was a tofu dish we ordered that I feel like having now. Even my bro, a non tofu fan, liked it!

Singapore Dec07: The good stuff

2007-12-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

I just got home from Singapore about 2 hours ago and before I blog about anything else, I want to tell you what I bought!

In the order in which they were purchased:

1. 3 t-shirts from Queen's Couture, at Heeren. I pop by this shop almost every time I'm in Singapore. They have a great collection of Junk Food tees, as well as other labels. I tell everyone to go to Queen's Couture in Singapore for their t-shirt fix. And no, I don't get paid for the "advertisement" I do for them.

One of the tees I got says "I tripped on the 12th step". I thought that was cute. But I don't think someone who's actually undergoing rehab will find that very cute. Hmmm.

2. dVb jeans at Queen's Couture! I got the Dark Indigo Bootcut jeans and OMG I love love love how they fit like a glove! And are like wonderbras for your ass. Ahem.

They are the only shop in Singapore at the moment that sell dVb jeans. Queen's Couture also sells jeans by Hudson, Ksubi (formerly Tsubi), April 77, and Cheap Monday (apparently THE denim label for skinny people with no ass ).

I'd planned to get another pair of designer jeans to add to my tiny tiny collection, but was actually planning for a pair of True Religion ones. I don't regret my dVb jeans though; I love them!

OK but...there is always a BUT, there was some kind of miscommunication and the seamstress that was supposed to alter the length of my jeans (I'm short!), wasn't told that I had to have them back by today (Sunday) and she's out of country till next Wednesday. Great. *wails*
So anyway, the nice people at Queen's Couture have offered to deliver my jeans to me by mail when it's done, and they will also bourne all freight charges. So I guess they're still in my good books. Now I'm just hoping it will arrive before year end!

3. Earrings by Dior. I super adore them.

4. Pumps by cK. I like my shoes high.

5. CDs from Gramophone at Ngee Ann City. Now, I blame my brother for this, because I was killing time while waiting for him for dinner one day, and ended up buying 7 CDs. The guy even asked if I wanted to apply for a VIP card.

I do find some CDs cheaper in Singapore, like the Hotel Costes series.

Groove Armada - The Best Of - Includes the new single "Song 4 Mutya"

Hotel Costes - Sept (Vol. 7). I thought I'd start by buying the one that I've had my eyes on for a long time.

Carrie Underwood - Carnival Ride

Stevie Wonder - Number Ones

Hed Kandi - The Mix 2008 - just arrived that very day!
French Kiss.....XXX - I can't find a link for this but it's basically French lounge music.

Jamie Scott & The Town - Park Bench Theories - If you don't know Jamie Scott, I suggest you get to know his music. Now.

OK that was all. I have a tiny hole in my pocket already. But as Sharryberry said, 'tis the season to be jolly!

Across the pond

2007-12-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

Gav kindly offered to pick me up tomorrow morning and suggested going for brunch first.
Thing is, I already have lunch plans with my uni mates.

"Idiot. You have to accompany me for breakfast. I'm not picking you up for nothing ok"

OK so if I'm late for lunch tomorrow, people, it isn't really my fault! :P

I have yet to pack. I hate packing.

My bro just called to tell me to bring his tennis racquet tomorrow.
(And bed sheets too. And some documents for him to sign!)
I feel like the UPS delivery girl. Yay.

Oh one more thing - I was at the launch of Centro @ Sooka Sentral earlier, and I'd parked at Plaza Sentral because the car park at Centro was already full by the time I arrived (which was still early!!). Anyway when I left, there was no one manning the booth at the car park exit. So I parked for free! Whee!!

Maybe I should have packed earlier, so I could be out now instead of home deciding what I'd like to wear for the next 4 days.

OK I really have to pack.
My cab will be here at 5.30am tomorrow! *gasp*

What goes around comes around

2007-12-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

I've been doing some thinking.
I feel you have been way too nice to me, way too tolerant of me and my (earlier) senseless disregard for your feelings. And I wonder why you put up with my sh*t. I have not met anyone (outside of my family), half as patient with me as you have been.

Now I am here, and you are there, our roles reversed. Now I understand.

And I don't know exactly how I feel - it's a strange mix of emotions - but I don't want you to care how I feel. For once, maybe you shouldn't be so nice to me. I don't feel like I deserve it. It makes me feel more guilty than ever.

I want you to be happy more than anything, so do what pleases you. And I meant it when I said I wanted you to talk to me about it like you would with any other friend.
Don't think about me and my feelings, just this once.

What not to ask me

2007-12-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

A friend I have not spoken to in a long while (maybe about a year or so? Brief MSN chats don't count) calls me up.

We do the usual catching up.

"Do you still do yoga?" he asks.
"Yes"
"Are you still vegetarian?"

Now, what kind of question is that?! It's not the first time I've heard it. Why do people like to ask me that? It's not a phase for me, I don't think. Moreover, I would imagine it would be tough to go back to eating meat after I've stayed off it for so long. And I have no reason to want to go back to it.

I jokingly "scolded" him for asking me that *grin*

Don't get me wrong, I was pretty glad to hear from him and that we caught up. I'm just not sure why that's such a common question! Maybe I'll ask him next time.

P/S: I don't usually talk about being vegetarian, but since we're on the subject, I'd just like to say, please also do not ask if I eat fish. I find it a rather amusing (although sometimes, annoying) question. If I did, I'd tell you I was a pesco vegetarian. Or semi vegetarian, or something like that. And come on, think about it. Fish. Animal, no?

P/P/S: I have nothing against non-vegetarians! All my friends and family members are not; I love them all regardless.

Kashi GoLean!

2007-12-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

If you know me, you'll probably know that I like healthy food. Organic, preferably!

I've recently discovered Kashi GoLean Crunch! Honey Almond Flax, which is yummy on its own or with milk (organic soy milk for me!).

Me likey!!
But it's rather pricey - over RM20 per box, but I don't remember the exact amount - so I'll try not to finish it in a week!

Truly Heavenly Spa Treatment @ Jentayu Spa

2007-12-10T21:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I finally made use of spa voucher #2 that I received from some friends for my birthday.

I didn't blog about my first visit to Jentayu Spa, which was some months back. I had a traditional body massage then.

Anyway, I arrived the spa at about 2.20PM for my 2.30PM appointment. I was greeted by Ida, the spa manager, a very courteous and friendly lady.

I sat in the waiting area, flipping through magazines for about 5 minutes. Then Ida led me downstairs, where all the treatment rooms were situated.

My treatment began with a foot soak (I think all treatments do), where Maria, my therapist, scrubbed my feet with a pumice stone.

This pic was taken during my first visit to Jentayu.

She then showed me to my treatment room, and handed me a towel, bathrobe, shower cap and disposable undies to change into, after which she led me to the steam room.

15 minutes in the steam room seemed like forever. I kept myself occupied by watching beads of sweat form on my arms, listening to the song playing in my head (some Mandarin song by Sally Yeh, believe it or not!), admiring the henna tattoo on my arm, wondering what Bikram Yoga would be like and telling myself I must try it one day soon, wondering what would happen if I were to faint upon stepping out of the steam room (I'm quite imaginative, I know!) and remembering the last time I was in a steam room (at Chi Spa, Bangkok, with mum, about 2 years back. I so want to go back there!!).

Next, I was led back to my treatment room for my Mococa scrub treatment, after having a glass of water. I'm guessing Mococa scrub is made from a mixture of ground coffee and chocolate (well, duh!). Did I ever mention that I love being scrubbed? When Maria scrubbed the front of my body, she placed cold cucumber slices over my eyes, which was very refreshing. I like! I wondered how Lamb would have reacted if she were me though, because I could actually smell the cucumber. When she was done scrubbing, Maria left me for 10 minutes, presumably to let the goodness of the ingredients in the scrub work their magic. I've read that coffee scrubs are good for the prevention of cellulite. Well, I sure hope so!

Then I showered, and was ready for my body massage. Maria used rather strong pressure, which I liked. Again, when I lay on my back, she placed cucumber slices over my eyes. When she was almost done with my massage, Maria turned on the tap at the foot of my massage bed. I could hear water filling up somewhere but I wasn't quite sure where, or why.

When the massage was over, she got me to step down for a while and removed the top of the massage bed to reveal a bath tub beneath! And then I realised what she was doing earlier (now, had I read the treatment description I would have known that the treatment included a herbal bath!). I thought this was genius, this whole hidden bath tub thing. I stepped into the bath, and watched while she scattered flower petals all over. Flowers! I love flowers!

I don't remember the last time I had a bath. But I remember my brother and I used to play in the tub together at home when we were very very young, before we could fully appreciate what members of the opposite sex being in the same bath tub meant.

Maria left the room and returned a little while later with a cup of ginger drink for me. Yum!
I sipped on the drink slowly and played with the bath foam for a little while, then decided to get up and into the shower before my fingers started to look like my granny's.

When I was through, Maria came into the room and applied body lotion for me. Talk about being pampered! In the midst of it, she asked if I "jarang makan nasi" (seldom eat rice).
I thought for a while and replied that I did eat rice (I am not a big fan of rice; I prefer noodles and certain breads), and asked her why.
She said that my "perut cantik" (nice stomach / abdomen).
I think she just about made my day. And made all those gym, yoga and pilates sessions worthwhile!
10 extra brownie points for Maria!

I got dressed and went back upstairs, chatted with Ida for a while, bought a small bottle of their Spice body wash, and left feeling very relaxed and happy!

Thanks you guys!! (you know who you are)

Jentayu Spa offers customers a 20% discount on all treatments from Mondays to Fridays, between 10am and 1pm.
*I intend to go back when I'm on mandate leave for a mani and pedi!*

The spa also has couples' rooms. However they do not have treatments for men alone. Men have to be accompanied by their wifes or girlfriends!

Jentayu Spa
No 11, Jalan Gelenggang
Bukit Damansara
50490 Kuala Lumpur

Tel No: (03) 2094 4428

Enchanted

2007-12-09T01:48:00.000+08:00

I finally got to watch the movie last Thursday! Wheee!!!!

And it was good! I left the cinema all smiley.
Smiley, and drooling over Patrick Dempsey.
I think he looks better in scrubs on Grey's Anatomy, though.

James Marsden seems to like singing (he was in Hairspray too). But I personally feel he's more suited to the Cyclops kinda character.

Read the Wiki entry for some Enchanted trivia!

And OMG, the song that was played during the ball ("So Close") - didn't it make you almost want to cry your eyes out?

If you have not watched this, do go! Especially if you're a girl who likes happy, feel good, dreamy, romantic Disney movies!

I watched this at GSC Pavilion. I like, I like! Maybe because it's new and shiny and all.
I also love that it's very close by for me!
(A ticket costs RM11 instead of the usual RM10)

Hammam @ The Attic

2007-12-09T01:06:00.000+08:00

Was at the Attic earlier for an event organised by Hammam & The Attic.
VictorC & wife Karen are visiting KL this weekend so I brought them along to the event. Something different, a little less tourist-y. After all, they've been to KL before.

We had a go at the shoulder massage first. Actually, I cheated. I had 2 shoulder massages. *grin*

Then we got henna tattoo-ed. VictorC initially had his on his nape, then realised that he couldn't show up to work with that (Singapore Navy; very strict!) so he got it removed then had another on his arm, which he could cover up at work. I had mine on my left arm, then saw Joanna, gave her a hug and totally smudged it because it wasn't dry yet. Silly me! *smacks forehead* So I got it redone on the right arm. My first henna tattoo. This one's pretty light though.

We ate Moroccan food. It was yummy! But I was a klutz (as usual) and dropped my fork on my dress. Thank goodness it was a dark coloured dress so the stain wasn't obvious.

A belly dancer entertained us with a few dances and got some patrons to dance too.
She was really tall and slim and made me gawk. I told VictorC and Joanna I thought she was hot but they figured she was "a little thin". Well, not to me!
*YES, I am straight*

We also got our feet pampered with a foot mask + massage, which almost made me fall asleep!

While I was getting my feet wrapped up, VictorC handed me a plate of Moroccan salad and also the cinnamon orange dessert. I had wanted to try the salad earlier but it had run out, and as for the latter, I'd mentioned I really liked it. I guess *some* men do listen!
But instead of thanking him, I narrowed my eyes at him and went "Are you trying to make me fat?"
"It's just salad!!" he scolded.
I happily tucked in.

There was a lucky draw at the end of the night and guess who won one of the 2 prizes? VictorC! So tomorrow he and Karen will be getting pampered at Hammam! They'd already planned to go so since they'd won the voucher, they'll have to pay less for tomorrow's session. Oh, and being Singaporeans, it works out even cheaper for them. Yay, I'm so happy they won!

This was the first time I really got to speak to Karen. I'd only met her once before this, which was during their wedding last year.
I found out that VictorC had told Karen a few things about me, like my shoe buying habit back in uni (which is still a habit till today!), and apparently I'm "a little ditzy".
I glared at him, then gave up trying to deny it. So, yeah, I am....but only sometimes!!!!

Popcorn

2007-12-04T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday ES!!!

Since it's your birthday, we'll probably have to let you be as corny as you want to be today (oh dear me!!)
OK, will talk to you........like, now :)

Thanks for always being so caring.

Enjoy your trip ok, and don't forget our goodies!!

Holiday, anyone?

2007-12-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

We usually have 2 family holidays a year but this year we will have none at all! *wails*
My brother's unable to get his leave approved since he's just started on his current job.
And mum won't go on a family trip with one member missing.

So I'm going to Singapore on my own. I just can't decide how long I should stay. I'm fickle!

My loooong weekend

2007-12-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

You might have noticed that I've stopped blogging about every little thing I do now (as I did when I first started blogging) because, well, I can't be bothered to anymore. But since 5-day weekends don't come around too often, I thought I'd blog about it, as briefly as possible because you'd probably fall asleep if it were too long.

Wednesday
Woke up late and hit the gym in the early evening.
Went for Mambo with Jean and MJ at night. And Shen, and 2 of MJ's colleagues.
Jean and I got asked for our IDs. I guess we still look young!
I'd told Shen there was a hot girl for him to meet and his "schedule suddenly cleared up".
He left early because some people actually had to work *grin* Then again, MJ had to work but he partied with us till 3am!
I danced on the podium, because MJ asked me to. I was sober, thankyouverymuch.
MJ and I convinced Jean to stay on for another day; she was supposed to go back on Thursday.

Thursday
Woke up with gastric and felt like throwing up but I forced myself out of bed to tidy up a little, because Jean was going to put up with me for the night, since she had to check out of the hotel.
We had a light lunch. I thought I should have something hot so I had soup.
Left Jean to get her nails done.
I was going to go in to the office for a while.
But then my car - or rather my car remote - decided to die on me. Just like that.
I knew I joined AAM for a reason!
(It's all OK now. Dad passed me my spare remote, bless him!)

By the time we got home it was 5PM so I thought, screw work.
So we watched TV, browsed through the Prada holiday catalogue that had just arrived in the mail, and got ready to go out.
(Prada has some excellent holiday gifts! I want, I want! And some I-have-too-much-money-to-spend gifts like a stationery set. Prada stationery?!)

Jean met up with a friend and I went to watch Eh, Got Free Ticket Ah? with Sharryberry, AL, and AK. It was good!
Personally, I liked Jit Murad the best because I loved his all of his politically incorrect jokes.

Met up with Jean and MJ again after, for drinks at The Terrace Bar @ Zouk. We were going to go to Velvet, but when I arrived they were just coming out because apparently music that night sucked.
MJ introduced us to this drink which I really liked. Baileys with something something.

My bro being away meant I could let Jean have my room that night, and I had his.

*V had free tickets to the James Morrison show, at the very last minute. He sounded so excited on the phone. Dammit. I'm waiting for pics!

Friday
Forced ourselves out of bed early. Sent Jean to KL Sentral then went in to the office for a couple of hours.
Went for a facial at Clarins - after 2 months! - and dozed off. Found myself wishing I could have slept more when Cecilia told me the facial was over.
Shen called - this was when I got conned but didn't know it yet.
Went to get my nails done at Nail Clinique.
Had a quick dinner then went to watch the movie.
Joined AL, ES, Sharryberry and JN for drinks at Vintry after. Shen, Jess, and TL came along. I told Shen (who was driving us) that we had to leave early because I was very tired and had to wake up early for yoga the next day but we ended up leaving at 2am.
Jess was a dog (bitch?), monkey, and chicken all in one. It was hillarious!
*you had to be there to get it!*
Jess made a remark about my eye bags. *sulk*

Saturday
I woke up with a start at 9am. That was when yoga was supposed to start. So I silently cursed myself and went back to bed. Tired lah.
Got my hair and make up done for our annual dinner.
My brother - who had come home for the weekend for a friend's wedding on Sunday - sent me to the hotel.
The annual dinner, themed "all that glitters", was better than last year's in my opinion (last year's was really boring). Ferhad was a rather good emcee.
We had tranny dancers who were wayyyy hot.
Only Lamb won something in the lucky draw - some Isetan vouchers.
But none of us won any of the grand prizes. No LG plasma TV, no iPod touch, no Sony home theatre system, no PS3.

ES, AK and I headed over to AL's place for drinks and a game of taboo after that. Nick + gf and JN were there too. AL has left the bank but we still hang out quite a lot, which is great :)
Party pooper Lamb decided to go home. Sharryberry who couldn't make it for the dinner decided not to join us either. She had her reasons but we wanted to irritate her so ES, AL and I harassed her over the phone (this was at like 12am, poor girl). Then 5 of us, including me, decided to sms her "You bitch". AL sent "you", then each of us sent her a letter (spelling out bitch). She actually took the time to reply to each one of us with a word each. Quite layan also, that woman!

Sunday
Guess who overslept again?!
But I did manage to drag my ass to step class in the afternoon.
My brother was in for a little while so I spent some time talking to him. He was out most of the day because he was part of the groom's entourage-or-whatever-you-call-it.
Was supposed to meet up with MC at night but she had to cancel, which worked out for the better because I felt like I really needed some rest.
Oh, and I finally made all my Scrabulous moves too.

So today's Monday, and it's back to work for me, for another 2 weeks.
And I made it for yoga class today, yay me!
My brother surprised me by calling when he was at the airport earlier this evening, while waiting for his flight. I thought that was really sweet.

I got conned

2007-12-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

Last Friday, about 4ish in the afternoon, I get a phone call.
"Want to go watch a movie?" It was Shen.
"What movie?"
"Enchanted"
"Ooooh, I want!!!"
So I FFK-ed the boys for dinner and decided I'd just join them for drinks instead, because I *had* to watch Enchanted.

Later at night, on the way to the cinema:
"Why are you watching Enchanted?"
"Because you say you want to watch, and Jess says she wants to watch"
Wah, so nice, I thought.

We were running late so we got Jess to collect the tickets first.
Just as we stepped out of the car, she text me. "It's not Enchanted."
So I turned to Shen. "It's not Enchanted?!"
"It is!"
"No it's not"
"It is"
"Jess just sms-ed me lah!"
Then he grins his very cheeky grin.
Idiot.
"What is it?!"
"Almost there already, you'll see!"

Turns out the movie was Unrest.
"What stupid movie is this?!" I felt cheated.
"I heard it's better than Black Sheep"
Oh, like that was supposed to make me feel any better!!

OK, so it wasn't as bad as I'd expected. Maybe because I expected it to be rubbish.
But still, that doesn't change the fact that Jess and I got cheated. Pfft.
It was rather gross at the beginning though. A little too graphic.
Next time I shall book the tickets!

Later that night, TL asked why I still fall for Shen's "tricks".
Goodness knows. Some people never learn I guess!

Oh oh, but the lead actor, Scot Davis, was hot!
OK, got eye candy, not so bad after all.

La dee da

2007-11-30T20:53:00.001+08:00

I'm waiting for my ride so I'm blogging to keep myself awake. See, I was going to drive out on my own so that I could come home early but I'm pretty tired and lazy (but still want to go out!) so I decided not to drive.

The moment he picks up the phone, he's like "You want me to pick you up?"
Haha! So smart lah you. Two thumbs up.
I'm planning to sleep in the car. I'm not a very good driving companion; sorry.

I'm icky. I haven't showered because I just got home not too long ago.
I hope no one picks up on it.
I hope people smell the Chanel Chance and think, oooh she's all clean and sweet smelling!

My brother's coming home tomorrow for the weekend!!

Baaa....

2007-11-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday, Lamb!!!!! *big big hugs*
College wouldn't have been as fun without you.
Mondays (and probably every other day at work) would be more of a drag without you too.
I love you loooooooong time!

I just had to get this post in while it's still 30 Nov :)
Gotta run now......but I'll see you tomorrow. Another flaming for you, maybe? *evil laugh*

P/S: Please don't kill me but I'm going to watch Enchanted *guilty look*
I am sure you still sayang me big time.

Sunday morning

2007-11-28T15:11:00.000+08:00

A friend sent me a text early on Sunday morning. Her father had passed away. Today, she says she doesn't know how she's pulled through the last few days.

I keep trying to think of all the "right" things to say, but I don't know if they're really right. I mean, what do you say? Nothing, but time, can ease her pain. I feel sad. I want so much to make it better, but I can't. All I can offer her is a listening ear.

Won't you let the ones you love - your parents, your lover, your friends, maybe even people with whom you've fallen out of favour - won't you let them know you care before it's too late?

She had also requested I donate to one of the charities her father supported, instead of sending a wreath. I like this idea. I might want to practice this too when I pass.

This is why I need a driver

2007-11-25T23:47:00.001+08:00

You'd think that after 3 years I wouldn't get lost in KL anymore. Well, think again!
I super sesat tonight on the way to PJ.
I never go to PJ though, so I guess that explains why I got lost.
And to make things worse, when I'd finally got on the right track, I took a turning too early and had to waste a good 10 to 15 mins trying to look for a damned U-turn. *scream*
Jean's in KL for work and on her first night, I took her on a 1 hour joy ride. Shame on me.

Anyway, the weekend was a busy but pretty fun one.
Tomorrow's Monday already. Boo.

It's your move!

2007-11-24T18:04:00.000+08:00

I keep getting reminders to make my moves on Scrabulous (by 3 people so far, for 2 separate games).
It used to be me harrassing other people, so I believe this is karma at work. *shy*

So sorry! I promise promise to move tomorrow afternoon!
Last night I said "tomorrow afternoon" too hehe but I will get around to it latest tomorrow, promise!

Home alone

2007-11-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

Someone asked me how I like living alone now.
Well, I think I have gotten used to it.
No, I like it, actually!
Not that I don't miss my brother; I do. I still call him quite a lot.

I'm looking forward to my days off.
"Do you really need all these holidays?" my boss asks.
"Hmmm....Well, I could not take them and you'll just pay me back for them?"
He approved my leave applications immediately. *grin*
So yeah, I'm off Friday. And then again next Wednesday - Friday.
Woot!

This whole week's been planned out. I'm excited.

On my way home earlier, I noticed my fuel light had come on.
Crap. I don't like going to the petrol station when it's late. And it was almost 11pm.
Then I had a brilliant idea! I'll just drive my brother's car!
I like driving his car anyways.
I suppose this is one upside to him being away. I get 2 cars to drive!

There were 2 highly annoying kids at the opthalmologist's clinic yesterday. I wasn't in a good mood because I was really stressed out at work, but still had to rush out to see the doc and the last thing I needed was to be around a couple of screaming kids, who wouldn't quiet down even after being told off my their mother!
Well, anyway, I can wear contact lenses again! Yay me!

And I've just deleted my Wait For You ring tone from my phone.
There's still the sms-es and a pic left, but one step at a time right?

Tea For Two

2007-11-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

I'd like to tell you about a little restaurant I discovered tonight called Tea For Two.

It's in Bangsar, on the same row as Opus, Cava, The Attic. It's the last shop on that row.
What I really liked was the X'mas decor and just how cosy it felt. I was feeling kinda low on my way to dinner but the moment I stepped in, I felt happier! I didn't feel like I was in KL. Maybe because most places aren't so Christmas-y yet.
It was also really quiet (and yes, there were other patrons besides us). I loved that. No annoying screaming kids, just civilised grown ups.

Oh, and it was someone's birthday so they played her a birthday song. And guess which one it was? NKOTB's Happy Birthday To You!! I was so amused.
*I was the biggest NKOTB fan back in the day*

You are probably wondering about the food. Well, I liked my pasta, MJ liked his cod fish dish, and we both liked the appetiser we shared.

I hadn't seen MJ for a while so we ended up chatting for 3 hours without even realising it. It was good.

Edit: I forgot to say something. I ordered a glass of sangria, and it came with a straw! LOL!!
Anyway, for good sangria, try 7ate9. I tried their sangria last week (someone ordered a jug) and loved it! There were a few of us; we all liked it.

Tea For Two
57, Jalan Bangkung, Off Jalan Maarof, Bukit Bandaraya, Kuala Lumpur
Tel : 603 2095 3739 / 603 2095 3976

I should be sleeping, not blogging

2007-11-15T01:29:00.000+08:00

My mum called me yesterday to tell me about the latest university rankings.
(View the entire list here)

UCL is ranked 9th this year! WOOOOOOOHOOO!

LSE, surprisingly, came in at 59, down from 17 last year.
For once, I could gloat to my brother.
He said the list is retarded.
Hahah!!!

Frankly, I'm wondering if he might be right.
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Do check out Tama if you get the chance.
MC, Shen and I got an album each tonight! We thought they were really good.
Shen offered to let me have his after he'd ripped it but after he'd left, I somehow decided to buy one and had it autographed by the band. Yay me.
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I was about to delete the saved SMS-es, but didn't feel ready to, so I didn't.
Not yet, but soon, hopefully.
I finally told mum. Well, sort of.
She's been going on about it.
Maybe I shouldn't have told her.
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And thank goodness my eye is OK!
I just hate that I can't wear contact lenses till next week.
"You look like a nerd", Shen said earlier.
So much for support! *rolls eyes*

Of Stars and Bees

2007-11-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

I finally got to watch Stardust today, and oh, how I loved it!
I laughed, and cried (yeah, I did!) and came out of the cinema feeling really happy.
In fact, I liked it so much, I wouldn't mind watching it again!

Watched Bee Movie last night too.
I'd say, either watch this on DVD or give it a miss altogether.
It wasn't bad, it was just.... not as good as I'd hoped it would be. I mean, for a movie with such big names as Jerry Seinfeld and Renee Zellweger, and with the trailer I'd seen, I'd expected more.
I was so happy clappy when I found out it was Bee Movie we were watching (which was what I'd requested).
Because I was told it was Balls of Fury.
Having said that, it still had some really funny lines which made it quite enjoyable to watch, especially at midnight when I didn't really want to use my brain!
Someone came out of the cinema saying he didn't get the movie at all.
Haha! Well, too bad!

I have one other thing to blog about but my left eye is kinda screwed up (it hurts, and it's tearing a little) so I suppose I'll leave that for tomorrow.

KL Rally

2007-11-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

I was watching a news coverage on Al-Jazeera about today's rally / protest. It was worse than I'd thought, and pretty worrying too.

There were some road diversions and congestion on my way back from 1U today but again, it wasn't as bad as I'd expected. Maybe that was why I'd assumed that the protest wasn't that serious. Guess I was wrong!

I found some pictures here.

Were any of you part of it?

Mish mash

2007-11-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

I heard about the upcoming SATC movie on E! today and almost squealed out loud.
Sex and The City on the big screen?! Well, it's true, people!

OH. MY. GAWWWWWD.

I'm so insanely excited, can you tell??

Shen sent me this earlier. So cute, no? I like Lego.
It reminded me of someone though.
You'll know who you are.

Last night at Zouk, I introduced someone to Shen, and he (friend) went "Is that your brother?"
Yeah, apparently, we look alike. What a compliment for him!

I love days off because it means I can wake up late, have time to do whatever I want (or do nothing if I so please) and best of all, I have more time to go to the gym!! Wheeeee!!
Although I'm not sure I'll have time to tomorrow hehe.

I was talking to Jess earlier.
She and MC joked about the possibility of having to set up a single girls' club one day.
MC said that I won't be in that club. Because apparently, I need a man in my life.
*grin* I found that funny.
Unfortunately, I have to admit that MC is right. I know it's quite pathetic, but it's true.
She sure as hell knows me well.

I wonder if I shook my head really hard I'd get you out of it.

Everything reminds me

2007-11-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

I've been having relatively good days.
Today wasn't one of them.
Today you're like a very bad song that I can't get out of my head.
It's no good.

Run, baby, run!

2007-11-04T21:45:00.001+08:00

Today's Terry Fox Run was fun! Since I don't usually run (and since I was too lazy to train!), I took the short route, which was a little over 3km. I'm contemplating taking part again next year, and running the long route (which, if it's the same as this year, will be a little over 5km).

It was my first time at Lake Gardens (shame on me!). I really liked it. Very pretty.

We went for brunch after, then I came home, showered and crashed for close to 3 hours.

P/S: Thanks to ES for taking all the pics!

Warning

2007-11-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

Bat your eyes, girl,
Be otherworldly.
Count your blessings,
Seduce a stranger.
What's so wrong with being happy?

- Incubus

I thought I'd post those lines up because they make me smile.....although the music video itself doesn't make you want to smile! It's a good song though.

I smell lovely!

2007-11-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

Most people have a signature scent. I wear a few scents but what I like and wear the most, and thus consider my signature at the moment, is Sarah Jessica Parker's Lovely.

Unfortunately, I'm only a few spritzes away from finishing the bottle so I've been saving it and using more of Chanel's Chance.
(Chance is also really nice - duh! - but I somehow feel that Lovely is more me. I can't explain it).

I was actually contemplating buying another bottle of Lovely, until I found out SJP's got a new fragrance out, called Covet.

I saw the ad on TV today - I think it was on E! or something - and it made me sooooo want the fragrance, even though I have no idea what it smells like! Check out the commercial on the link above, and tell me if you don't want it!
Then again, I could be biased cos I adore Lovely.
Something else I adore, is her dress in the Covet commercial.

I want to go to Singapore again soon, just so I can get my hands on the coveted bottle!
*I bought Lovely at Changi airport. I've never seen it here, come to think of it.*

My other signature scents in the past, were Issey Miyake's L Eau D Issey (back in high school) and Ralph Lauren's Romance (uni days, methinks).

So what is (are) your signature scent(s)?

P/S: I recently went to check out Chanel's Mademoiselle. One of those fragrances that grows on you, I think. I quite like it. I'm also keen to get a whiff of Prada's new fragrance.
But obviously I'm not going to buy them all!

Running for a cause

2007-10-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

Get your Terry Fox Run 2007 t-shirts soon, and come run / walk / crawl for a good cause on Sunday (4th Nov07)!

I like this year's tee design.

Thought for the day

2007-10-31T22:41:00.000+08:00

"People don't think as much about you as you think they do"

Someone said that today, and it's very relevant to me, because most of the times I think I care too much about what other people think about me than I really should.
Are you that way too?

So anyway, today was fun. I met a number of interesting people, learned a few new things.
And got a Tiffany & Co pen too! Possibly the best souvenir / freebie I've received so far.
All thanks to mum :)

I wanted to blog about something else but now I'm feeling lazy and tired, so maybe tomorrow.

Wait For You came on radio today on my way home, but I didn't feel the need to switch channels this time.

Mum says she's not heard me talking happily for a while, but that I sounded happy today.
Mum doesn't know.
I realise I've stopped telling her certain things, things that will get her worried.

I've been calling my brother quite randomly. A few times a day *grin*.
Once, just a "hi what are you doing? Ok bye" sort of thing.
He's been really nice about it though!

It's oh so quiet

2007-10-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

I don't like it.
Actually, it's not the quiet I don't like. It's the knowing that I'm all alone!

How to maximise your shopping experience in just 1 hour

2007-10-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

Pay very close attention, people!
Here's what you do - shop like a guy!
By this I mean, know what you want.
Then get in, get it, get out. Chop chop!
No sidetracking! This requires a lot of will power but can be done.

So, my loot:

Another pair of Havaianas - the 2007 Hibisco in blue.
(not green! I just couldn't find a pic of the blue one on its own)

I'm contemplating getting one from the cartoon collection next.

Get your Havaianas at The Heeren Level 4. Browse the huuuge collection here.
(By the way, I think NewUrbanMale.com is not a good name for the site. If I didn't know that they sold more than just men's stuff I wouldn't visit the site at all!)

And some new music!

1. Elliot Yamin

Oh. My. Gawd. I finally found it!! You'd think that this would have been quite easy to find, but no! The last time I was in Singapore they didn't have it. Rach couldn't find it in the US. *gasp* And, it's more expensive than your regular CD (SGD34.00). Tsk tsk. But I had to have it anyway.

2. Drastic Fantastic by KT Tunstall

OK, I know this can be found here. It's just that the last time I checked at Tower Records they didn't have it in stock so I thought, what the heck, might as well get it.

3. Dakshina by Deva Premal

Well, actually, I was looking for Embrace but couldn't find it, so I got this one instead, since it's so damned difficult to find Deva Premal CDs!

4. Tourist by St. Germain

This one wasn't planned! :)

What was planned, but I ended up not being able to find, was Hotel Costes vol. 7. It's very expensive here; I think it's cheaper in Singapore.

HMV - Top dog for music!
Hehe that was their tag line in UK. I'm assuming it's still the same.....maybe.
HMV Singapore doesn't seem to have a tag line though.

My feet hurt like crazzzzy from walking around (and running a bit too) ALL day in high heels. I need a foot rub!

Don't ask why I was in Singapore for a day :)

I'm so pooped. I should sleep soon. I'm going to wake up early to send my brother off.

Random post #281

2007-10-28T22:25:00.001+08:00

I'm listening to Van Halen's Balance album now (my brother's) - I've forgotten just how much I love some of their songs! Right now, Don't Tell Me (What Love Can Do) is playing.

So today was family day. We went with my brother to buy a new pair of work shoes and *gasp* the new iPod nano!! *super envious*
It's of a higher capacity than mine and is cheaper! But mine's way prettier cos it's pink.

"Will you miss me?", I asked.
He nods and smiles.
I was surprised. "Really?!"
He nods again.

Whee!

The good points about living alone:
- More shoe closet space!!
- I can go sleep in his bed whenever I feel like sleeping in a king sized bed.
- I can walk around the house in undies!

The bad points:
- Who's going to layan me on Sundays for dinner?
- Who's going to take me to the hospital if I happen to fall violently ill at like, 3am?!
(because it's happened before!)
- Well, I'm just used to having him around. Even when we were in uni, we had each other around.

I keep forgetting what I have to do tomorrow. It's terrible.

It's probably normal to feel a little sad now and then, but mostly I try to block it all out from my mind. I know that I will be fine soon. And I'm extremely lucky to have friends who care so much.

Who wants to go watch James Morrison and Elliot Yamin perform at KL's Live and Loud event with me? I'm willing to skip this year's annual dinner for Elliot Yamin!

To love somebody foolishly (Can happen once)
To love somebody hopelessly (It hurts so much)
To love somebody equally
Is not enough, it's not enough

Love hurts you sometimes
It's not so easy to find, no
- Not Enough, Van Halen

And today marks a whole new beginning...

2007-10-26T09:14:00.000+08:00

.......for you. I wish you only the very best.
Don't forget the good habits.

And me, I'm leaving this behind.

P/S: My brother's sticking around / keeping me company till he flies off on Tuesday! Woot!

And so begins, the long weekend

2007-10-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

The riot in my heart decides to keep me open and alive
I have to take myself away from you
Cause I can't compete, I can't deny there's nothing that I didn't try
How did I go wrong in loving you

* * * * *
Cast me gently into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind

It's official

2007-10-23T23:28:00.001+08:00

I'll be living alone from Sunday on.
My brother's going home on Sunday, then leaving the next Tuesday.
This is such bad timing. I need a little more company right now.

I was going to spend more time with you, but I guess not anymore.

I'll have to stop expecting the usual, what I've been used to for the last few months.

I suppose I'll get used to it in time. Hopefully sooner than later.

For all of life's answers

2007-10-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

I *swear* I heard the door bell ring earlier, just as I got out of the shower. But when I peered out the keyhole I didn't see anyone. I opened the door, stuck my head out, and didn't see anyone either.
Maybe I was hearing things.

The doc said I have IBS. I didn't know IBS involved nausea.
But it's not possible that I have IBS because I don't have diarrhoea / constipation.
(I've had it before, so I know!)
So I Wiki-ed it (taking a cue from Sharryberry). Maybe I have chronic functional abdominal pain.
Gawd that's a mouthful.
He did prescribe some anti-spasmodics (which I haven't really been taking), which apparently works for CFAP too, so maybe my self diagnosis is quite accurate.

I have so many questions, so much to say to you.
I don't suppose it's of any use at all, maybe except for some closure.
They all say you're not worth it. Everyone, but me.

Stripped

2007-10-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

I'm sure you know this song by Sarah McLachlan. It's how I'm feeling right now.

Love has made me a fool
It set me on fire and watched as I floundered
Unable to speak
Except to cry out and wait for your answer
But you come around in your time
Speaking of fabulous places
Create an oasis
Dries up as soon as you're gone
You leave me here burning
In this desert without you

.......Everything changes
Everything falls apart
Can't stop to feel myself losing control
But deep in my senses I know

How stupid could I be
A simpleton could see
That you're no good for me
But you're the only one I see

- Stupid, Sarah McLachlan

And really, you had me falling for you. Every inch of me.

You said you didn't want to hurt me but you've hurt me more than anything. Strangely enough, I don't hate you. I could never. In fact, I really really sayang you. I wish you'd hold me in your arms, wipe away my tears and tell me this was all a dream.

I think, more than anything, I'm just really disappointed in you, because I'd thought you were different from the others. I'd also have expected you to be man enough to have told me in person.

I think about the times we've shared, I re-read your sms-es and emails (because, yes, I'm pathetic /sentimental enough to have kept them) and I wonder if any of it was real, or if it was all just a lie.

I'm not sure if you've figured it out, but I never really sleep soundly until I know you're home and until I hear that familiar voice. I cared about you that much. I still do, so very very much.

I feel like a damned fool. I think about your friends; they must think I'm a freaking idiot.
Frankly I feel like I've been taken for a ride.
But in some ways, I also feel like I've brought this on to myself.

I still want to be there for you.
I want to be as supportive as I ever could.
I still want to know everything about you.
I still want to hear that familiar ring tone every night.
But for now, I will need to get used to the fact that we will never be.

I still love you. So much, it hurts.

P/S: I've always loved the song "Ice Cream" but now it only reminds me of one thing.

Sometimes you just can't help feeling the way you do

2007-10-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

Do you ever wonder why some things happen the way they do?

The weekend's been pretty fun, but I simply couldn't get some nagging thoughts out of my mind.
And I don't know what to do. Or maybe I do know, I just don't want to do them.
I wish everything was a little easier.

Quarter life crisis, I tell you.

Slow down

2007-10-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

I'm actually really tired of not being able to figure out what the hell it is I want. Why is it so darn difficult? I want to have an epiphany! Tomorrow!
And I wonder if people are sick of me telling them "I don't know" all the time. I mean, I would be sick of me. But it's the truth, I really don't know.

I do, however, know what I don't want. That's better than nothing, right?

I'm tired of listening to both sides of my brain telling me completely opposite things.

I'm tired of reading serious stuff.....so I've stopped for tonight.

I'm tired of hoping when I really shouldn't, but I can't help it.

I need to silence the voices in my head. Time to read a fashion mag!
(then I will hear a different set of voices, telling me to go shop hehehe)

South bound

2007-10-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

Someone sent me an email with the above picture in it today, and I'm just posting it here because I think it's pretty.

I sneaked out of the office half an hour early today.

I lost my Scrabulous challenge! *pout*

I'm very happy I got to have tapas tonight (I love tapas) although service at La Bodega (Telawi) was crap. Company was good though. K Lee said I'm getting old. *sulk*

Bro and I will be going home for the long weekend tomorrow!

I have yet to pack my bags. And my laundry. I don't have to do laundry this weekend!!

I'll think of you :)

Selamat Hari Raya!
Have a good one, ya'll!

Quarter life crisis

2007-10-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

Last Thursday over dinner with some girlfriends, last Saturday over lunch with another girlfriend, today over G Chat with yet another friend, I keep hearing the same things over and over.....and over.

That we're slowly nearing our expiry dates, and God forbid if no one picks us off the shelves, we'd become stale and get tossed out. I hear this from almost all of my single girlfriends!

That we don't know if we've made something of ourselves that we can be proud of so far. We might have nothing remotely interesting to tell our grandkids - if we even have them.

We're getting old goddammit.

But I feel young. Yay!
(well, only sometimes. but that still counts)

Do you ever?

2007-10-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

Why do we hope against hope when we know it's foolish to do so?
Maybe that's what makes us human.
Or, women.

Gah!

2007-10-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

When someone says something untrue and negative about a friend, my first reaction is to stand up for said friend. And I DO NOT appreciate defensive responses, especially when I've said what I had to say nicely.

I also DO NOT appreciate being asked a whole lot of personal questions about a friend. And this, by someone who does not even know said friend well. It's damn intrusive ok.

I'm annoyed.

What Makes You Stay?

2007-10-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

Some songs you just can't get out of your head.
This has been playing on my iPod the whole day. Well, sort of.
It's sad. I like sad songs.

Look at me
I'm in a place
I never thought I'd be

Don't have the strength
To fight anymore
Or a reason not to leave

So tell me why I still keep holding on
To something I just cannot see

(Chorus)
What makes you stay
When your world falls apart
What makes you try one more time
When it's not in your heart
At the end of your rope
When you can't find any hope
You still look at him and say
I just can't walk away
Tell me what makes you stay

I'm not afraid
Of living alone
I was alone before he came

I've been in love
Many times before
But this time's not the same

I've always been the first to say goodbye
Now it's the last thing I can do

(Chorus)

When it goes this deep
And feels this strong
I can't convince myself
That this love is wrong

(Chorus)

-What Makes You Stay by Deanna Carter

Red hot

2007-10-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

Val said something in her email today which made me laugh and nod in partial agreement at the same time, so I thought I'd share it with you (and yes, she knows I'm posting her view on my blog).

"...day in day out, i see ongoing evidence that reinforce my belief that most of the male population deserve to live in some hole under some rock."

Hehe I thought that was funny!
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I heard something about myself at work today. Rumour has it that I'm going to do X, when really, even I have not decided if I will!

I'm not annoyed or anything, just amused. Kinda seems like people have made my mind up for me.
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And have you guys seen Maggie Q's latest ads for PETA?
*Yuri, I am suddenly reminded of that joke about the PETA acronym!*

I love the chilli pepper ad but I can't save a copy of the picture, so you'd have to click on this link to view it.

She also did a leaf ad.

I think she looks hot. And it's for a great cause!

FC on The Breakfast Show

2007-09-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

This is a bit last minute, but do watch The Breakfast Show on NTV7 tomorrow morning (Monday 1st Oct07, 8am), for an interview and performance by Frequency Cannon (actually, just 2 of the members).

I'll be recording it on Astro Max!

Edit: So did you guys catch it? Shame on you if you didn't! *grin*

Slow motion

2007-09-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

My brother finally comes home from an entire day out.

Him: Have you eaten?
Me: No.
Him: Lets go eat.
I wasn't hungry but that never works on him so I had to use something else.
Me: I have food at home.
Him: You can have that another day. Lets go.
Me: Where?
He comes up with a few suggestions. I don't look enthusiastic at all.
Him: Lets go to the Pavilion.

Suddenly I wanted to go out for dinner. I've not been to the Pavilion yet.
He sure knows how to get me out!

Anyway, it's a nice place. A number of shops aren't opened yet though.
I found a guitar shaped necklace watch at Marc by Marc Jacobs. Pretty affordable.
"Like you'll use it lah" my brother said. And he was right. I probably will not use it much. So I didn't buy it.

Oh, there's a Yo! Sushi too! CM and I used to go to Yo's a few times a week back in London. However my brother was told that the one here wasn't good so we didn't try it.

This was my brother's second time at Pavilion, and he's also been to The Gardens at Midvalley. This is NOT right. He's checking out all the new malls before I do!
And tonight, he did most of the talking, which is such a departure from the ordinary. Usually he just listens to me babble about nothing.

He thinks I'm being "so 17 years old" in making my decisions. *shrug*

If you're wondering about the title of this post, it's because today everything seemed to be moving in slow motion.
And it was one of those days when I didn't feel like listening to any music at all.
I bought some new music earlier today though, just because. But I don't feel like listening to them tonight.

Letters from miles away

2007-09-30T16:25:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking about this one line from a friend's email (I won't say whom) a few days back:

"...where they kinda know they have to walk away but they're so drawn to each other the chemistry is almost tangible. Just the way he looks at her so intensely, and the way they kiss, and the way he watches her leave.
.....to be in love. To have such strong feelings that your eyes follow his every move and it's so difficult to look away."

Have you ever felt that way about someone? Or maybe you feel that way about someone now.
Or maybe, you don't think you could feel for anyone in that way ever again (that would be tragic!)

It's a nice feeling isn't it, to be in love?
Or even just to be emotionally connected to someone.

I just wanted to share what she said with you.
Off to do the groceries!

Sunday afternoon

2007-09-30T13:38:00.000+08:00

A friend (actually, my brother's ex in college) once gave me a bookmark, on which she'd written this on its back:

"To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven"
- Ecclesiastes

Now, I'm not Christian, but it was one of the few things that popped into my mind driving home last night / this morning.
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Some nights, you wish they never end, because the new dawn brings with it realities you don't want to face.
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Today I feel too lazy to do anything, even to go for yoga *gasp*
But crap, I gotta do the laundry and groceries.
I'm tired just thinking of it. *looks at bed longingly*
Maybe I shall go lie down for a while. Hehe

Random post #99

2007-09-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

Do you make decisions with your head or your heart?

Me, I almost always think with my heart. I can't quite decide if it's a good or bad thing.

What's good though, is that I will be on leave tomorrow! *happy happy joy joy!*

P/S: No, I don't actually count my random posts.

Happy post!

2007-09-23T23:05:00.001+08:00

Sharryberry, ES, Lamb & HL, and I made a trip to Kuala Selangor last night to see fireflies. Gotta see them before they go extinct!

It took us an hour to get to K.Selangor from ES' place in Shah Alam, and about 20 - 30 mins to his place from Sharryberry's in Bangsar. So really, from my place, it was as if I'd made a trip home to Malacca! Only I didn't.

Oh we got to play with Milo and Phoebe at ES' place. I soooooo love Phoebe!

We had dinner at some restaurant that ES & family go to sometimes, Restoran Kuala Selangor. A+ for creativity! *grin*

I was very intrigued by this thing they called the helicopter, for it's shape.

Only Sharryberry and HL ate them though. Apparently it was chewy and didn't have much of a taste.
It looks kinda scary, don't you think?

We took a 30 min boat ride along the river after dinner to see the fireflies.
It was pitch black, quite breezy, very quiet, and there were tons of "lights" in the trees all blinking in unison. Very pretty, really. But after a while we got bored of seeing the same thing over and over.
We weren't allowed to take pictures though. Bummer.

ES was super busy taking pics with his new toy the entire evening. I'm stealing some pics to put up here, without permission. Hehe.

That's us minus the photographer.

And some fantabulously gorgeous sunset pics!

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I had buckwheat pancakes for brunch yesterday! Whee! I'd been wanting to have it for some time.
Thanks, you :)
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I'd planned to go shopping this weekend, which I did, but I ended up spending more than I'd planned. Oops.
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I want to go to The Pavillion. Soon!
Oh wait.....no, I think I'll go next month.
See, self control!
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And last but definitely not least, if you're in the mood for good music....
- Wednesday 27th Sept07, at No Black Tie
- Friday 5th Oct07 at Bed, Asian Heritage Row

Sunday evening already?!

2007-09-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

Mum and dad were in KL today.

Dad sat me down for a talk in the evening. I'd seen it coming, so I wasn't surprised. But I'm now feeling rather conflicted.
I was talking to my brother about it earlier and before I could finish, he completed my sentence for me - accurately, too! He sure knows me!

Anyway, I was telling my parents this over dinner.
When I first started working, I was really enthusiastic about going to work everyday, and I didn't mind working looong hours and weekends.
After about a year, I'd started looking forward to the weekends on Thursdays, then Wednesdays. And I'd made it a point to not work too late or weekends. I had some help then, so that lightened my work load.
A few months ago I started counting down to the weekends on Mondays.
Now - it's been roughly 2.5 years - I look forward to the weekends on Sunday evenings.
"Time for a change!" dad laughed.
Damned right it is!

Happiness is....

2007-09-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

A gazillion dollars, a private jet, a shopping spree in Milan?

Good music, good food, good company?

Knowing that the special someone you're thinking of is thinking of you too?

Putting a smile on someone else's face?

A smile from a stranger?

Acknowledgement for a job well done?

An unexpected bouquet of flowers?

A phone call from an old friend, or one far away?

It could be anything. What makes you crazy happy?

Good news, bad news

2007-09-19T22:37:00.001+08:00

Jean just told me that she got promoted recently, and I feel so freaking happy.
I don't know why. I just do.
I know it wasn't me who got promoted, but it makes me smile. Maybe it's because I think she really deserves it, all the hard work she's put in.

She was supposed to come to KL on Oct 5th for the weekend, but now she's just found out that she can't (work, what else?). Bummer.

Little Miss Ditzy

2007-09-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

I wasn't sure whether to post this because it would probably make me look really bad, but oh what the heck. It's good to laugh at yourself sometimes!

This happened last Saturday night.

I couldn't get my car key out of the ignition. So I started the engine up again, turned it off, tried to remove the key, but the key remained stuck. I did this twice.
Die.
Panic.
So Yuri has a look at it.
Then after a while, he goes "You know why? It's not in P."
(The brake was up, but my car was in neutral)

I know, I'm so smart.

Always put your car in P before attempting to get the key out!

London calling

2007-09-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

So, my boss will be going to London and Spain next week, and asked if I wanted anything from either country.

Yes, buy me everything in Selfridges!!

Well, no, I didn't say that, but I was so tempted to. I also wanted to ask if anything and everything I wanted would be fully paid for by him. *grin*

I miss Selfridges! That was my second home back when I was in uni.
That, and Planet Organic (the one at Torrington Place).
I want to go back to London!

Anyway, I do want something from London. Just maybe something more affordable *thinks hard*
Suggestions, any?
Oh, and what's nice in Spain? I've never been there!

Gimme more?

2007-09-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

Everyone's been talking about Britney's performance at the VMAs, so I had to watch it.

I don't know what to say. It's like watching a whole different person altogether, don't you think? She looked so very uninterested too.

What do you think of it?

And since we're on the VMAs, check out the performance by JT, Timbaland et al.

Gotta love Justin!

On another note, I'm frustrated cos our Astro's kinda screwed up at the moment, and neither my brother or I have had the time to attend to it yet, so I have nothing to watch now. Bleh.
Sharryberry, can I come watch recorded ANTM at your place please? *sweet innocent smile*

How do you feel?

2007-09-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to put into words how I feel right now but I can't.

Well, I do feel a tad tired despite having slept the entire day.
(Yes, I am lil' ms. piggy, I know. Oink!)
But I feel a host of other emotions. I can't put them into words.
Or maybe I just don't want to. Or don't know where to start.

Can you tell I'm a teeny bit confused?

*yawn*

Maybe I should go write in my diary. I think I shall.

Maybe I'm crazy

2007-09-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

I know this post will make me appear rather bonkers but well....maybe I am? Hehe

You see, I keep all my shoes in their boxes. After I wear them, I leave them out for a while to air, then I stuff them again to keep their shape, put them back in their boxes and store them.
*I'm mad about my shoes so I have every right to be anal about them ok?*

So anyway, I just realised that the maid threw out one of my shoe boxes!!! ARGH!!!!!!
I'd left them out - see above - and for some reason she decided I didn't need them anymore.
(No she usually does not throw out my shoe boxes).

So now, my BCBG shoes have no freakin' home. *cry*
Maybe I'll evict a pair of not-so-loved shoes from its box just so this one has a home. We'll see.

Never mess with my shoes I tell ya. Ever.

Days like these

2007-09-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

Some days you wake up on the wrong side of the bed. Sometimes you shake it off, sometimes the whole day just remains crappy.

Some days you forget your glasses then wonder why you can't see a thing (not me).

Some days you have so much on your mind but you just really prefer to keep all your thoughts to yourself.

Some days you really want to be alone, but want to be with someone too. Not just anyone.

Some days you could do with a few hugs (no, actually, everyday).

Some days you receive your favourite flowers for no real reason; it possibly makes your entire week (no, not me).

Some days, you get so sick of work you wish you could tell your boss to do it all himself.
"Same sh*t, different day" (MC).

Some days you wish you had all the answers. But no one really does, eh?

Some days you're just afraid of the unknown.

Some days.....

Cap and trade

2007-09-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

I've come across this term a few times, so I decided to Wiki it.
(Because Wikipedia has the answers to all of life's questions, right?)

So what is cap and trade? Here's an extract from Wikipedia:

In such a plan, a central authority (usually a government agency) sets a limit or cap on the amount of a pollutant that can be emitted. Companies or other groups that emit the pollutant are given credits or allowances which represent the right to emit a specific amount. The total amount of credits cannot exceed the cap, limiting total emissions to that level. Companies that pollute beyond their allowances must buy credits from those who pollute less than their allowances or face heavy penalties. This transfer is referred to as a trade. In effect, the buyer is being fined for polluting, while the seller is being rewarded for having reduced emissions. Thus companies that can easily reduce emissions will do so and those for which it is harder will buy credits which reduces greenhouse gases at the lowest possible cost to society.

(Read the full entry here)

I wonder if this system would work on individuals as well.
So say, if I were to ride a bicycle to work everyday, I could sell my excess carbon allowances to someone who just won't give up his / her Hummer.

What do you think of the cap and trade system?

Hairspray!

2007-09-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for this movie! According to the GSC website, it should be in cinemas on Sept 13th. That's this Thursday!!

Whee!!

Plant Love

2007-09-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

I just read about this lipstick by Cargo Cosmetics today. I think it's really cool; I'd love to get me one!

The lipstick tube is made from corn, which is biodegradable. The lipstick contains no mineral oils or petroleums; instead it is made with a botanical formula. And, best of all, the box that the lipstick comes in grows into flowers when planted!

I want, I want! I'm all for all these enviromentally friendly products.

Black sheep

2007-09-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

Watched this tonight.

The movie's about genetic engineering gone bad. Very bad.
It's pretty gross, and so stupid that it's funny.

We were supposed to watch The Invasion but Shen read some reviews that said it wasn't good.
Surprisingly, Black Sheep got better ratings than The Invasion!

Here's a review on Black Sheep. I'm pretty amazed it got good reviews!

Butterflies

2007-09-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

I finally got around to picking up my parcel from the post office last Friday. It was a birthday present from Val.

Guess what she sent me?

A Gucci phone charm that matches the butterfly charm on my Gucci bag! Whee!!!!
(yeah, I know it's a badly taken picture)

Thank you dear!